December 2011
13 posts
Temptation
Oh how I love turning it down for you nowadays. It isn’t temptation anymore it’s just things that would separate us and I don’t like them. So don’t worry anymore. My hands are willing to mend every and anything wrong with us. Perfection takes time but we will achieve it babe.
I haven’t been nervous like this in awhile. I think it’s because I’m actually losing you. At the same time it makes me tip toe, nervous, butterflies. I Love it.
Changes
I think I heard His voice. I think you dont listen to mine much anymore. I offered to take you to Corona. To sit by the water with a quesadilla pizza and take a stroll on the san catching up. You know even just for an hour. I was so nervous to see you last night. I sped there. I wanted to be on time, I wanted to just show you things changed; I’ve changed. I just … I just wana smile...
& Strangers is what We Will Be
I can’t begin to retract how bad it is that I have apparently been in your life. I’m sorry. I’m finally feeling the depth of it. Kinda wish you could calm my anxst attack. Sorry.
When I do what you ask you think I don’t, but I’m really just leaving you alone. I don’t wan’t to. I really would do anything not to, but I have to.
Stop.
Stop being so mean to me. I don’t say that girls glorify me what the fuck? I’m sorry if me being a nice person attracts friendly relationships. Stop being a fucking cunt to me 24/7 I grew up and just wanted to sit and talk about life and catch up. I need to find a place and I just needed your input because I love hearing it. I’m watching a presentation in class on Domestic abuse...
What I miss about you most was when it was freezing outside and you would meet me in a black Peacoat in front of my English class with some outrageous flavored 7/11 coffee. You would lean in towards me and kiss me with your warm, soft lips and I could smell your hazelnut breath and taste the sour tinge as you pulled away. In my mind, your lips are what I remember most.
Hard Day's Night
Last night my room got rolled on with 7 people drinking a handle, three bottles, six mickeys, and a few four lokos. I wasn’t in the room when this happened but I walked up just as the RA’s did. Kyle, Murphy, Me, and possibly Oreo and Spencer are all fucked. I’m looking for a place right now but I’m sweatin’ finding a job and paying rent and making myself food. I need...